In this series, I share my [correct] opinions and you get to decide if I deserve your validation or not.

If you know me personally… actually, let’s be honest; even if you don’t know me personally, you probably know that I’ve NEVER been anywhere close to being in a relationship. It’s no secret that in my 17 years on this earth, I’ve never had a boyfriend. And as embarrassing as this is to admit, I’m also not fully ashamed. Don’t get me wrong; I don’t love this lifestyle. I don’t enjoy being single and alone. Of course I cry myself to sleep every once in a while. But as I said earlier, I must take some responsibility for my own loneliness. Part of me has chosen this path. Can you really blame me though? Is it not horrifying to think about the stress of being with someone? With a boy. A guy. A man. A male. A dude. Does nobody else struggle to envision themselves in a relationship? Maybe I’m the only one. Sure, I’ve had my share of crushes. But if the time were to have ever come where any of those guys actually liked me back, what on earth would I have done? It’s probably because I’ve never been in one, but relationships just seem impossible. So if you have a significant other, please feel free to answer these questions which boggle my mind daily: 

• How do you begin a talking stage? Do you not feel dumb for calling it that?
• How do you hang out with that person one on one? Is it not awkward? 
• How do you have enough time for each other? 
• What if you get an ick and can’t get rid of it? 
• How can you be that comfortable around someone? (I can’t even look at myself when I don’t have mascara on without gagging a little.)
• HOW DO YOU JUST… KISS?!

None of this seems at all possible to me or for me. I don’t believe that I will ever experience it, and I don’t believe that anyone else has either. The idea of it sounds great, it really does. But the thought of a boy liking me for who I am… nah. That’s just not physically possible. So if you’re in a relationship, then I have one thing to say to you: congratulations, but no you aren’t. If you’re dating someone, you’re probably not real. If you can reach that point with another human being, then you don’t exist. I can’t wrap my head around the concept, so therefore it can’t be real. And I feel as though I can’t possibly be alone in these thoughts. So here’s my final question:

Am I valid🔥💯 for having this opinion?